season finale
j’sais plus quoi en faire moi de tout c’désertage
« no pain no game » qui m’disent tous
m’en caliss des adages
si seulement j’pouvais m’la geler ce soir
peut-être que ça les ramènerait
That day,
like every morning I stood up refreshed.
Then I roamed around the room, looking for decent clothes to put on.
I could catch the city's smell from up here,
my old and rusty apartment:
last floor of the highest building on my street.
My version of fresh air, I inhaled.
I took a deep breath to make sure I could catch the smell of coffee,
the smell of garbage,
the smell of cars,
the smell of people,
the smell of love,
of hate,
that familiar smell of insecurity.
In these moments,
These morning duels between me and the world,
I was pretentious enough to consider myself above it all,
Blaming the altitude of my room for that impression of tallness.
But I was like them,
I was them.
And they were me.
As if my window constituted a mirror, a reflecting surface.
closing them
violently.
And I ran to the shower,
trying to wash out my conscience of the reflection I just had.
But it failed.
alone,
exhausted and melancholic.
Like every mornings from now on
I stood up dizzy
And sore.